I slept uneasy,
I was tired and didn't ask God to protect you,
Forgive me, for I believe had I not been selfish and prayed for your life
You would have been with us.
Instead, I woke up to a silence that shook me.
That was the only day you didn't respond to my voice,
The only day I called papa papa and you didn't open your eyes to look at me,
That day you left us, left us to live without you.
I miss you,
I miss that pure smile,
I miss that selfless aura around me,
I miss saying Papa.
They say, you are with me, you are watching me,
I ask you, if its true then why dont you reply to my voice?
Why dont you place your hand on my head the way you did?
Why did you leave me?
Why didn't you open your eyes when I shouted papa?
I was tired and didn't ask God to protect you,
Forgive me, for I believe had I not been selfish and prayed for your life
You would have been with us.
Instead, I woke up to a silence that shook me.
That was the only day you didn't respond to my voice,
The only day I called papa papa and you didn't open your eyes to look at me,
That day you left us, left us to live without you.
I miss you,
I miss that pure smile,
I miss that selfless aura around me,
I miss saying Papa.
They say, you are with me, you are watching me,
I ask you, if its true then why dont you reply to my voice?
Why dont you place your hand on my head the way you did?
Why did you leave me?
Why didn't you open your eyes when I shouted papa?
Dis is beautiful Smriti, i hv tears in my eyes!! B strong as u r!! i knw hw it feels to loose a luvd 1!! Ur dad is surely wid u always, watchin u!!
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ReplyDeleteheartfelt :') really the way you have put down your motions, makes it worth a read. Kudos.
ReplyDeletePeace.. :)
Thanks Neha n Avik!!
ReplyDeleteNo words or none one can understand what you have went through, all I can say is that you are bravest amongst us all, Words are so pure and full emotions, I salute ur writing and respect ur feelings
ReplyDeletegoosebumps and tears...that is what i got when i finished reading the lines...god bless you!
ReplyDeleteawesome ..i luvd each and evry line..it brght tears in my eyes....losng and livng lyf is hard..u rembr evry day...it kills u each second..
ReplyDeleteUn-break my heart
ReplyDeleteSay you'll me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart
heartfelt...really smriti the way you have pen down your emotions i luvd each and every line..it brought tears in my eyes..May God bless you with allyou desire in life!!
ReplyDeleteVery emotional...I wish,I shouldn't have read this.
ReplyDeleteBeautifully written. I had tears in my eyes while reading. It's really difficult to live without the loved ones but thats life. May god gives u enough strength and showers his blessings on you. Wish you luck... :)
ReplyDeleteBhawna
The questions are similar, the emptiness is the same, the pain is not unknown to me, the yearning I can feel too, my heart aches when I read about my little sister in pain, my eyes fill with tears when I see the same questions being asked again.
ReplyDeleteTrust me, I say from my experience, he speaks through your voice, he sees through your eyes, he lives on through you ...
Just remain connected with your inner being because that is the home he nurtured while he lived and resides in even today.
Thanks for opening your heart up Sim, I know you are all grown up and all ... but call me I will always be there when you need me :-)
The poem was very touching and straight from the heart. Loss is so painful we get completely overwhelmed...
ReplyDeletelove you loads
Thanks blah.. But I would like to know who you are!!
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